"Who am I? Where do I came from? Where do I exist?"
It was a double holiday Holy thursday and Araw ng Kagitingan. April 9, 1998 the day when I was born. They derived my name in so many sequence that they can could. Gabrielle came from the holiday Araw ng Kagitingan because of Gabriela Silang and because my mom wants a boy name for me she made it into Gabrielle. My dad is the one who gave my second name he derived it from the Holy Thursday according to my dad it should be "angelic" so he came up with the name Angelica.
I don't know how to explain my childhood days cause for me it was a nightmare. Those days, when my parents get seperated so me and my little brother we have to stay with our mother because according to the law. It wasn't easy for us to stay with our relatives, side of my mother, because they still have the cultural aspects of being a chinese. Those things that I wouldn't forget the horrible, terrifying, sacrifices that I went to. It was lunch time according to my aunts and grandmother they're the one who is going to eat first then us. After they have taken their lunch of course my aunt will feed her children(my cousins) and my grandmother left. For short no one feeds me, I went to the dining area cause I saw my "Ninang" there that she was eating I sat on the chair and there was a plate infront of me with rice. I was able to hold the spoon and fork suddenly my Ninang gets the rice in my plate then she said "kanina ka pa pinapakain ayaw mo kumain" because I was only a child i wasn't able to do something, I wasn't able to say something, I wasn't able to argue with her. She is a total Liar and a bully. After that I left her, and my aunt told me that i should go to sleep. While she is forcing me to sleep she is pinching me all the time and she is really mad, i really don't know why they are treating me like that it was so rude that's why till now when i going to remember it before I go to sleep there will be a tears coming out in my eyes. When my mom came frome work, she asked my Aunt, "saan galing yung mga pasa ni gabby" my Aunt didn't tell the true story for short she lied. She said to my mom "nahulog kanina sa hagdan yang anak mo" because i'm just a kid i can't do anything about it.
My first day class in a private school. First impression in my firstday "wow cool AIRCON!" my impression was like that because I can concentrate with my studies when I'm in an aircondition class. In my elementary days is where I proved my skills in math and computer, because my math teacher was always concentrated with us for short our math teacher was always strict. In my computer class, you wouldn't believe it that we are still using disket when I was grade one. But to be honest I hate computer during elementary days specially when I was in grade four the only thing that we need to do is to type and type and type, but during those times we are already a clever kid, for example we have four activities that we need to type we are gathering four person to type then we are just going to copy then paste in our unit. the lowest grade that I got in my computer class was 92, that's why we're just playing during our computer class it was just like we are in collage we can do what we want the important things that you need to do is to pass all your outputs thats it you have a high grade. but when I was in grade six, our topic was web design for the whole year. But there's nothing change still we can do what we want but the only thing that we need to is to pass all our requirements then that's it. I got bored, really bored because you're just going to copy on the projector then type.
When I was in grade one I asked my father that I want to swim. So he was my coach in swimming and I had my first competition in Rizal Memorial Stadium. The routine that i had during my elementary days was school-training-then home on the next day school-training-then home again. That's my routine when I was in elementary.
First day in my highschool, first impression "ang init" how I wish I can concentrate with my studies specially now I'm in an ESEP class huhuhuh. My first step, first walk in my class I don't know who are they, so I prefer to seat at the back then there was a man who interviewed me, that mas was kuya Paul, student who graduated for being an ESEP student. He asked me so many questions, until he asked me "saan ka nag elem.?" I said MCS, Marikina Catholic School. The he asked me again, do you know Sir Noel? then I said yes kilala ko po siya and he is my Ninong. Then he said Oh? bakit di ka nag theatre? I said wala po akong talent para doon hehehe.
I didn't make some friends to my new classmates cause I got culture schock. First, new surrondings. Second, no aircon. Third, I don't know who are they and they don't know who am I either. But ther is one girl who is very familliar to me but I didn't her name cause she was the cousin of my old classmate Ronalyn. When Ma'm Milo asked What is our uniqueness? that's the only time that I talked infront of the class. I have a seatmate but i don't know if he is really was my seat cause there was a chair between us. Eventhough that he is my seatmate I didn't talked to him hahaha. the only thing that i did was to solve my algebraic expression in a one half lengtwise. That's how I'm so addicted to math, but now I don't know if math was still my favourite subject hahaha.
I'm thankful that I passed and now I'm here, I belong to an ESEP class again. I'm already in third year, according to them this level was the hardest level in highschool, but according to Sir Trinidad this would be easy for us cause we are already "bihasa" according to him. But now if you are going to ask me, "speechless" i really hate my mom so much she is really putting me so much pressure, she is very rude I want to put her somewhere place where i'm not going to see her face again. One time, while Kuya and her are talking about overseas she said, "wag na baka lalo pang mag wala tong si gabby", I told to myself "Nope, you are very wrong! before the bell will ring I'm already here at home." Sorry for being a bad child this is where I can express my feelings which I don't want to express externally in my mood, that will be so rude if I'm going to do that. First thing first, she was the one who took care of my papers that's why I'm here. She was the one who disapproved my papers in Marisci cause she chose ESEP according to her "marami akong bantay, nandiyan si Marlon at Jeffrey" so RUDE!!! RUDE!!! before I graduated from elementary I bear in my mind that I'm going to have fun during my highschool days and when I'm already in collage that is the time that I'm going to get concentrate in my studies, cause Hello i need a break for nine years that I was concentrated with my parents desicions. I also concluded that I need to learn bad things in my life in order to make it balance. Not all the the time I need to be Good girl.